i feel--
depressed.

i dont know why.
just felt like it.
i skipped dinner--
just ate honey-dews.

hugging honey-senpai..
printing scince WS..
staring at math sums..
listening to 'Nobody Knows Who i Really Am'..
allowing my mind to clear itself.

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gawd.
micro-powerpoint is stuck__
curses it.
went in.
but got stuck again =.=""""

had tution earlier.

after sch,
elaine,gabby,lydia and i went to library frm 1.20pm to 2pm.
borrowed the judo/girly books i wanted.

then we four-some went to PP.
while walking to Popular,
i met ANDREA's'!!!! :D
they were in Mac'donalds EATING away.
ahah lol.
then back on road,
we walked to our destination.

i paid for the papers and two markers.
gahh.not enough $bling-bling$ to buy liquid.
oooh well~~~

went to collect elaine's glasses and contact lens.
took bites from elaine's and gabby's ..food.
SCAVANGER ON LOOSE.
aww..lydia,,dont you want a bite too???

bought cheese and peanut pancakes? frm JollieBean.
carried my 10000kg sch bag and 100000kg library books/paper/markers/water bottle
all the way back home.
i didnt take taxi.
i took bus 11.
(yeah,chinese cinderella bk.bus 11=legs. :))

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kena pestered by grandmother.
sigh.
gtg soon.
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i missed your presence.
i feel unsecured.
i jus want you by my side.
with you staying with me forever.
because i want to feel safe.
ive been longing this for my life.
and still waiting for that moment.
and waiting for that 'you'...

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sigh.
i finish printing all the nesassarys.
well---
time to do my last ques for math hw,
and study for nxt chapt of scinece and geo.
oh ya,read a book,completed.
tml,get ready for "ERAGON"'S SECOND SERIS.
bwaha.

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9.36pm and 40 seconds.
toodles.
felt normal again.
and here im wondering y those two ppl
dont write their post often.
i write posts to improve my english grammer,vocab,language.
oh heck,i dont know.

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i was soooo free today.
sort of. :)
i managed to read finish 'ERAGON' in two days,
a non-fiction book with 500+ pages.
you should read it.
its nice SUPER DUPPER SUPER XDD

went home and watched "howl's movin' castle.'
absolutly loved it.
then i went to study room to read and drawdrawdraw.
then finally went to bathe at 5.30pm.
oops... ;P
yeah,then i managed to do my chinese and math hw.
took dinner,
did hw.tution ws and completed my graphs. yay!

then i played gunbound.
ohohos.
went back to pack my bag,
revise geo chapt 1 (only.)
realised i hav 14 chapts of science to cover in 5 days,
art work to do in less than 1 week,
but decided to start on it tomorrow.

heh.
i feel LAZY
then i switched on the computer and printed su ming's home econs.
i feel KIND ;P (jk jk)
then i typed this blog before going to bed.

bwaha.off to librar i go tml!

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*go popular tml
*buy paperrrrr__
*buy liquid
*rush back home by 3.30pm.
*tution at 4.30pm.
bah!
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10.55pm and 57 seconds.
time to brush teeth___
:DDD smile!
Alright..
i hav to go do my homework..
so im gonna make it shorter and 'sweeter' :)

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chinese today was--DEAD.
paper 1 and listening was ok..
but paper 2,im DEAD!
GAHH~~~
im gonna fail!
did i mention that i was dead?

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9.53pm and 12 seconds.
jana.
ALRIGHT!
since im going to hav my dinner soon
and revision afterwards,
im gonna make this post
simple; and short :)

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well,exams are here.
so i've not been updating.
YOU HAV TO UNDERSTAND.
:D

Okk..i MISS JUDO!!
i wanna break-fall..
WAh...

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SUNDAY
cant remember much..
but i've missed my fav' tv programmes
as my eng tutuion teacher came to teach__
then some family time together.
At 4.15pm,
my father send me to the LIBRARY.
yah,,i went up and down,up and down,
finding a place to study.
GAH.
then i saw NABILAH and KELLY :))
yeah,they're going off soon,
so they borrowed my library card
and off they go!

alone once again,
i went to the top floor.
ADULTS SECTION.
wow.
soo crowded.
so i just walk past a shelf and--
a judo book!
i read it..missing judo even more.
>.<
bored,i returned it and went to the
second floor.
TEENS SECTION.
i stayed there frm 4.35pm to 6.50pm.
did my chinese and read book.
at the same time,
sms elaine.

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i walked back home.
ZZ.didnt know what i did nxt.

oh yah!i called andrea and asked her y she neva sms
me back.she said she's havin' her tution too :)
then when i mentioned that i wanted to invite her to the library today,
she said" Ooh!Dwyane was there too!"
Eeeeeeek!
almost dropped the phone.
Ha-ha.
alrightt...better not say anything else.
:D

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TODAY :D

english was..
ok--
just that--
comprehension gonna DIE.
blahh..

back home for math tution.
cant concentrate.
i was thinking abt chinese instead.
ooh!
7.37pm and 55 seconds.
better go EAT.

then i vowed myself..
after the exams,im so gonna go work out in gym.
my fats are comin' back and all my muscles--
GAH!

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Judo rocks!
one more thing i forgot to write:
" Love is knowin when to lead,to let go,to criticise,to priase..etc"

I had helped those to go to the correct path,
not to criticise myself and others,
to learn to praise,
and lastly,
TO LET GO.

msg :
im the one who should let go :)

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* to lend a helping hand *to say good-bye.

relax,im not suffering.
i've been much worse than this.
a death of my complanion is worst.
take it easy as it come.
Time will heal your wound.
Dont greive too much because of me.
dont worry.
just stay happy :)

OH NO!
TIME TO SLEEP!
11.04pm and 27 seconds.
O,o
A story:
when i was still 11,
you could say i was just a naive little girl.
i had this crush you see,
and it was the first time i had that special feeling.

"you would definately do anything for the person you loved most",
even if you had to betray your best freind.

i did.
i didnt know but i HAD to throw that stupid ball at
my best freind,which too,was my neighbour.

we didnt talk for 2 months,
and i was really..sad..
it was difficult to ignore her for TWO months,
because we see each other almost EVERYDAY.

it was all because of my foolish action.

i HAD to listen to my heart instead of my head.
my crush hated my neighbour.
well,i didnt know why.
so he told me to throw that ball at her.
i knew it was wrong.
my mind told me to stop,
but my heart said that i HAD to do it for him.

so i did it,
my neighbour went crying back home.
when i turned around to see my crush's face,
he was smirking and then started laughing.
then he ran off,
leaving me alone,
not knowing what to do next.

just that moment,
i hated myself for liking a person so unworthy.
i stopped liking him,
and was glad he had to move to somewhere far,far away,
a few week later.

on that day when i was forgiven,
i was relieved.
i shall will not do such a thing again.
listen to your mind
and follow your heart.
balance,dont over-do it.

End~

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Touching right?
true story.i got this from some place..
ZzZ.

i knew you would do anything for him,
just like the girl above.
it ok.
because i knew you love him too much.

but dont worry,
i know how it feels like that.
you need not worry,
its normal.

nothing changed.
you're still my best friend,
and he's just a friend that u knew.

Go for it,
give it a shot,
you'd never have a chance like this if u gave up :)
bcause u knew that he liked you too :D

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ANDREA!
i brought your judo floorball gear EVERYWHERE.
and i didnt need to use it at all.
because today was 'GAMES day'
no need to have goalies.
we played caption-ball,floorball(without goalie) and dodge ball.
ARGH.
my shoulder blades are like dropping off any sooner.
GIMME A MASSAGE :DDD
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feeling better?

***we angels still together as ONE :)
no matter black hair-ed or brown,
we'll help on another till eternalty.

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nothing will stop us from being
FRIENDS.







P.S : i passed my science and math.but i didnt do so well.

P.SS: i was that girl mentioned in that story.

10.43 pm and 29 seconds.
gone to sleep,under blankets,huggin honey-senpai. :)
HELLO WORLD :)
im cheered up today.
because TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY :D
but! GABBY! ANDREA!
U people DIDNT COME TO SCHOOL 2day!
What happen to YOU peeps ?
>.<
but nvm~~
at least i can see you tomorrow gabby,
and ANDREA~~~friday?
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THANKS
rachel tan,for that lovely gift,
elaine,for that orangy-card :D,
denise,for that rainbow-card :D,
suzanne,sohpie,ariel,grace lum,chole,avina,
andrea,gabby and my family for your b'day wishes!

And extra special thanks to myy aunt,
who gave me a HUGE and huggable stuffed-toy dog for my present :)
(and i called it 'Honey-senpai!)
bwhaha```adds it into my collection.

Thanks for that ice-cream cake too :D
ehehe.
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wheniheardwhatshesaid,
everythingcametogetherlikeapuzzlepiece.
iwassoembaressedandnow,
idontknowhowiamsupposetofacehim;
everagain___

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BWARG! SCAAVANGER on the LOOSE!


Honey-Senpai! CAKE!!



Sotong :)
I feel teerible.
how i wish i could change my life.
what happened to my math? Why is it so low this time round???

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Scince CA4 tomorrow.
Im gonna fail.
Geography CA4 today.
I think i'll pass.

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I just took my dinner and had had my tution/bathe just now.
I feel refreshed. :D
Then i saw those people online.
I freaked out.
>.<""""" Then i checked my mail: dont know why,but i've got these frm a doctor
`Love is not pompous.
`Love is never boastful.
`Love does not brag.
`Love is no braggart.
`A braggart does not feel superior to others but he boasts that he is.
`Boasting can be hurtful and unkind since it diminishes others.

theres still many others..
wow.those are meaningful word,are they?

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alright! time-out!
im going to do my sch hw
and revise my scince le.

P.s: Elaine came to my house today to teach me my D&T :D thankss girlfwen :)

Jana ;)
I feel cheated my my own companion.

And now,i feel as if im gonna hate all the guys i know.
Yes,YOU and YOU and YOU. >X(
sigh.
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I woke up this morning, feeling as if there's a pin stuck in my heart.
I rolled myself into a ball; and covered myself with the blanket.
I placed my *rabbit on my chest and hugged it real tight.
how i wish i could remain there forever.

sleep tight girl..<3

6 minutes to four pm.
im gonna watch tv soon.
Then i'll concentrate on studying my geography and scinece.
Math CA4 yesterday was..fine.(lost four marks already.)
whew.
my family and i went to PP at night.
Ice-Cream!!!(no wonder im so fat now XD)

jana for now >:)
Andrea!
No!
Apology unaccepted!
You're so NOT in the blame!
Dont apologize! It'll make me feel guilty!! :D
[Aside]Floorball was tiring right? I cant concentrate.
Even my fav' 'slap shots' kept on going the wrong way! XP

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IM SO TIRED.
i didnt have enough sleep.
toss and turn and up,its time for school.
*yawns. :Bah!Another long day..

Yess..My literature test went very well..wrote one a half page.
After that english..recess..contact time..D&T(loads of work frm Mdm Chan)..
Last but not least, geography.

Immediately after,i had my lunch.
which consist of: 1 'dou ha' & 4 garlic bread (small ones.)
*munch.munch.munch.COOKIE MONSTER!!
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then ran off for orchid,and off to Library at 2.30pm.

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Jill came at 3.40pm.
Jowie Tan won her bet.(lol.i bet'ted' Jill would b comin' at 4.10pm.ahah.)
FocussConcentrateeRunnSwinggHitt!
Aww..i miss.
Floorball ended with lecture till 5.35pm.
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im tired..
i sat down on the balcony starin' into space.

"I wish i could fly,
high up in the sky,
hug the clouds;
and strike you out.
I'll scream and shout,
till your ears go inside out."

i actually created a prose in a few seconds!
*mimicked gabby's laughter:OhohOhhOhOHohOHoOos..

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now its 10.32pm, and..where's my watch?
oh nvm.
i FINISHED my D&t.
going to do my English summary and chinese next.

Jana :)
"Only the rain can see me crying."
i was talking on the phone with andrea jus now :D
yess..talking abt ..
='-'=
ooh nvm..

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im tired.tired.tired.
todays' judo training was boring.
very few people today.
i should hav gone to the library instead =.=

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man..
tml is the first day of school Again
so many things to do,so little time.
things to do:
-return sch library bks,
-return national library bks,
-do my tution hw,
-plan my revisions for end-of-year-exams
-buy bday presents for him everyone !
-sleep earlier :D
-hugg my stuffed-wabbit <3 (too mushy :P)
-stop watching youtube.com T.T
-and get ready to say those four word to..

ergh.im going nuts again.
times now is :

10.16pm and 55 seconds.

signing off,,
sotong-going-nuts.

jana X3