The Bubbly Introvert

When people come across as vivacious, exuberant, and cheerful, we assume they're extroverts. But some lively people are actually gasping for time to themselves. Having good social skills isn't the same thing as wanting to be around people all the time. "These things go together a lot," says Sanjay Srivastava, a psychologist at the University of Oregon. "But they're not perfect correlations."

The Fix: Like other introverts, bubbly introverts have to be vigilant about guarding their alone time. Try saying, "I'd love to, but I need some downtime. How's Tuesday?"

taken from: http://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/200909/are-you-misunderstood

oh look!that's grace song!
well;sort of! xD

fortunately;i make time for myself.
& i don't need to have people around me all the time ;p
thou'..i'd like some attention xD

& i just found out that dooling helps people ocncentrate :D
come come!
doodle away with the doodler..like me! xD

read more from: http://bps-research-digest.blogspot.com/2009/12/what-does-doodle-do-it-boosts-your.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+BpsResearchDigest+%28BPS+Research+Digest%29

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& then i had to have a niec heart;
to agree to help out for the online forum xD

kinda have to answer the questions about HSS and her courses in Tp..
& i had to take charge xD

i looked through all 3 forums..
god;some questions are really...
really..
made me boil you know?

some people just ask stupid questions.
sigh- really.
& i'd just have to talkback to them soon :D

i swear i will talk to them nicely.
i will psycho them into coming into tp.
*evil laughter*
ethics grace.ethics.

it's jus hard not to put action into what you've learnt in school you know xD
well;at least that's what gonna keep me from boredom(:

xox;♥ace
P.S:i need to stop eating & start working out xD

favourtie weather: rainy day(:

i had a rather odd dream just now while napping for 2 and a half hours.
since i had periods;
its a habit for me to sleep my crams away.

just 15 minutes before i woke up;

i heard the door bell ring-
goggly-eyed and dizzy in the mind,
i combed my hair with my fingers.

my mum opened the door & invited a (rather) tall man in.
i walked down the stairs & tried to recognise the man.

he was at least a 6' foot tall.
broad shoulders,dark skinned.
his hair was clean-shaven,his features sharp-

he looked like he came from china-
he had sharp,almond eyes that slants slightly upwards like mine.
but his sharp nose fitted perpendicularly,
right smack in the middle.

his lips where proud and carried a hint of cheeky-ness.
he had almost-high-cheekbones.
overall,he seemed kind of boy-ish,even for a man.

he had strong,distinct features,
but he had a soft look in his eyes.
"your cousin,"says my mum, closing the door.
& then she walked away,leaving me with the strange man;
who apparently doesnt give me the stranger vibes.

cocking my head,i looked at him in awe.
"do i know you?" i thought.
the man's lips curled into a smile and his eyes kind of sparkled.
he held my chin & placed his thumb on the edge on my mouth & pulled me closer, gently.

"hey there," he said-
"have i seen you before?" i thought,puzzled.
i haven't said a word yet,but he seemed to read my mind.

clearly,i have never seen this 'cousin' before-
but why,why don't i feel any hint of uneasiness with this stranger?
it's as if i've known him most of my life.

& he planted a kiss on my lips,
like that was the most normal thing he ever done.

weirdly enough,i wasn't shocked.
neither did i push him away.
i held no feelings that moment;
i don't know why,but i allowed him to hold his kiss.

he slowly pulled away and grinned.
his eyes glistered & shone.
this time,i was taken aback-
he seemed to be glowing.

then he gestured me to kiss him back.
"i dare you," his eyes seemed to say.
surprisingly,i didn't think at all;
i closed my eyes & kissed him on his cheeck.

i was able to take a whiff of him.
he smelled like he had embraced tortue;
he had travelled around the world & seen many great things.
he had braved mother nature's seasons.

he had an air of knowledge & wisdom.
he seemed young,& old at the same time.
he seemed to have done much labour work;

he had the coarsest hands ive ever seen;
but they were the most beautiful,big and warm hands.

as i pulled away;
i realised i was holding my breath the whole time.
i sighed & looked at the man;
like scintillation, he twinkled.

& i woke up with a warm heart.

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pleasent dream i can say..
but i dont remember having a cousin from china :/
another one of my vivid dreams;
*laughs*


sleeping peacefully with cooling rain outside my window.

i look forward singing tomorrow(:

xox;♥ace
ran 2km in the morning today :D
but it's all flushed down the toliet.
*laughs*

well;i had my X'mas feast today.
god;imagine:
oven-roasted turkey,stir-fried vegetables,mashed potato,salad,home-made sushi + unagi, jelly + nata de coco, apple custard pie & .. watermelon!

*burps real loud*
*laughs even louder*
tummy's bloated xD

well;i spent the whole day at Marine Parade library :D
borrowed many many books with you-know-who(:
it was raining the whole afternoon-

it was blissfully cold outside;
makes me wanna sleep all day.
or cuddle up somewhere(or someone) to keep warm :D

too bad spore doesn't snow.
i would kill to have a fireplace in my house(:
& then we all can snuggle up together and watch the fire flicker;

the firey passion & hot cocoa..
oh god;
i think i read too many books xD (*sneers*)

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i used to follow this quote:
"forget perfection & aim for improvement".

you're right.nobody is perfect;
everyone has their own flaws,
their own story to tell,their own life to live.

& i can't change that;
or make anyone do anything.

but we shouldn't be blind to imperfections;
i think we could close one-eye;
but don't ignore parts & peieces that can be improved on.

cause i know you have the potential to do so much more;
& change for the better.. ..
well,only if you want to-

cause ultimately,it's your own decision & path.
nobody can constrain you.
they might be able to influence;
but still,it's your own choice.

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red & blue,
green & orange.
you entertain me;
& i'd support you.

urk.it doesn't rhyme.
*laughs*

xox;♥ace
P.S: have a fuzzy wuzzy new year!(:
i read it xD
& momo doesn't approve.

well..i would be lying if it doesn't affect my emotions today;
but i can't do anything about it,can i?

i respect her comments ^^
& dutifuly understand how she feels(:

so it's okkay,it's okkay.
just this time kkays,darling? xD

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went to Expo to visit Rachel(:
and see her friends perform.

& she collaborated with Sheng Chuan to surprise me xD
didn't know he'd be coming!my BGF (best-guy-friend).

*laughs*
& i got cookies & chocolated coated-'cake' frm them(:

they're yummy.i swear xD
& someone is jealous that i said they're 'awesomely awesome'.

well,i really,really love yours too(:
esp when you made them all for me.

i'd feel darned special for that day;
cause all of you were thinking about me when you bake/made these cookies/cake.

& i feel ever so loved;
i can't say how grateful i am xD

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a merry,MERRY X'mas my dears(:
may the god bless♥

school's in 2 days time,
just when i got used to holidays..sigh! xD

time for stress & hair-pulling again ;p
& force myself to work work work :X

i need to stop playing & focus now.
well;after eyeshield 21 ep 25 xD


cosplay xD


sena!


& i swear it'd be so cool if i could play like that.

american football/rugby feitish ;p
come tackle!

xox;♥ace
P.S:run,run grace run,run like there's no tomorrow-
& everyday,
im able to spend at least an hour with you.
isn't that nice xD

& i'm getting too comfortable being myself-
is that a good thing or a bad thing? xD

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depressed mood;
so i guess im not to be proud of huh-

xox;♥ace
P.S: cheer me up tmr(:
finally got my dress today xD
& thank you for accompanying me :D

went to Arab street & walked along the ulu alleys.
while you took your photos,

i admired your grace & posture-
& amused myself.


& we can just explore by ourseleves all day long.

noting much to report;
& so i'd call Gabby soon.. ..

xox;♥ace
went out with my darlings today..
yes yes,yoou included.

& grace song had fun fun fun.
althou its rther hard to hook hands with 2 people at the same time.

see;it wasn't so bad.
oh look!someone didn't die today.


flour!nooooo!
TOFU!

xox;♥ace
P.S:dead.havent started holiday school work:/
was feeling much,much better this morning-

cause i had a long,long talk with momo last night.
& after listening to different views,
i feel more at peace.

truthfully;i still dont know what to do.
& im not gonna do anything.

with much consideration,
i'd just wait & see.

what's done..is done.
right?
there's not 'restart' button in this ;p

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i swear everybody wants me fattened up.
didn't get to blog ytd cause i came home late..
well,same today,
but i was exhausted,both mentally & physically ytd.

had buffet on saturaday(ytd) to celebrate Ricky's 21st bday.
there were Army Guys xD (jealous much Naida? xD)
ate my fill-

today;
went vivo to eat at..what's that place called again?
ah right..Marche.
pork knuckles.ribeye.tomato-based pasta.mixed-veg.lamb-chop.. ...

wasnt interested in shopping at all.
was engrossed in a book "hush hush" the whole time.

cancelled movie today;
so we went to tampines1.

dinner..was at sakei sushi-
fried prawn udon xD sushimi,tamago,sushi des!(: (: (:
need to say more?(:

okkay.gym tmr :/
im forcing myself.. ...

anywax;
i had fun..today xD
*laughs*

xox;♥ace
P.S:give me time to change my darlings(:
another thing i learnt about myself;
is that i really,really like pasta.

yes,i love ANY tomato-based pasta..
even more than chocolate or sweets :D

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went to deliver snowman cookies @ Keith's house.
and had to rush off to meet Rachel Tan for dinner :D

& yes,all my loved ones will get one xD
(i realised i got too many friends i love)

well,i cant possibly get a Xmas present for all of you..
can i? i'm darned broke! D:<

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god,my handphone bills reached $61.
my god my god my god.

i shall limit myself to sms 10-15 a day :/
god.... ....SECOND time it went so high ;p

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first time in my whole life,
im doubting my decision-

if what Rach says was true,
i would've waited a lil' longer.

but well,it's only throu this decision that i realised that it's true.
so i can't exactly regret my choosen path.

well then;embrace it grace-
& be happy while it lasts.

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truthfully;
i don't miss you as much,cause i'm gonna see you soon anywayx :D

it's not because i love you less;
it's because i finally have the trust & faith in you that you'd not run away.

isn't that better? (:

xox;♥ace
P.S: no picture today! ;p
i don't exactly understand bis & pieces.. ..
but im learning.


give me time..

xox;♥ace
P.S: enlighten me;please.
it was quite torturous as first;
i had to sing from 9am-5pm today.

of course,with breaks in between.
i had fun singing with the rest of the 7schools(:

compared to my past sport CCAs..
well;Choir made me feel much more included-
i had a voice;to inspire, to sing for others.

& together in harmony,
we bring life to music :D

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i have just met the most sensitive,paranoid & impatient girl in my whole lifetime.
guess who.

her mind works so much more differently from others;
i realise.

she was torn between the decision to sms or call the whole time.
should i?or not?should i or should i not?

she's afraid she says.
if she did,she felt that she's such a cling-y girl.
who wants to know what he's doing at times.
not spot-check.definately not.
just to see what he's doing she says.
no,no.i should give him some space she says again.

then again.if she didnt,
she's afraid that he thinks she's not missing him.
oh dear,oh dear she says.
if i don't,he'd probably think im angry she says.
that's impossible;he knows well enough that i'd never be angry over something so trival she says.

that girl just sat there stoning-
i was watching at one side,amused.

what happened?
well,
the girl decided not to sms instead.
she decided to trust him that he'll sms back.

i shall show him that im not a leech she says.
i will show him that im strong & can resist temptation she says.
i can survive this period of time,without his presence she says.
but the girl still checks her phone at least once in every half an hour.

rather frustrated with the un-responsive phone,
the girl decided not to look at it till she went home after dinner.
and it was only 5 o'clock.

the girl sparked my interest;
from a spark to fireworks.

i laughed at the poor girl.
have some trust & faith in your guy thought i.
it's such a funny scene to see someone experiencing love for the first time.
she's ever so jumpy & tensed up;
but she's acting so cool & composed.

and then i smiled at the girl.
that's one life experience you should go throu' in your life time.
love makes the girl all crazy-
but she's so cute in a way thought i.
getting hyped up over this guy.

& i put myself into her shoes.


make me trust you.

xox;♥ace
P.S:Moral of the story..don't hate that girl.it's just her.forgive her unglam side :p she just doesnt know what to do.
its rather annoying-

my handphone totally died on me.
so if i dont reply your sms/calls;
you'd know what happened.

i cant imagine living without my hp :/
id feel totally cut from the world outside.
its like..i lost all my connections ;p

it's THAT bad.
& my plan ends end of next yeah D:
good grief.

"everything i touch dies!!"

& this applies to electronics that i've used.
by around 2 years..my stuff has been giving me lotsa problems :/

sigh.
god.i can't even switch on my hp now D:<
darnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

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two can play at that game(:

xox;♥ace
im sorry im sorry im sorry.
i really am.

ive never knew you feel that way :/
& its my fault for not noticing.

i thought you are a strong,brave girl-
i love you for appearing into my life;

i love your very presense,
you laughter,your obsession addictions & cheesecakes:D

i would never, ever do anything to hurt or harm you in any way :/
it's just this time,i'd be lying if i say im not completely smittened-

but if this makes you feel better;
`taken frm my dairy dated Friday,10th of DEC:

it's all thaks to her(you) that i've came this far with him;
so im eternally grateful for everything that you have done for me.

i dont know how to express my upmost sincerity & gratefulness to you;
but i promise i'd always be here if you need me-

& again,im sorry.

xox;♥ace :(
so what if im sensative;
i still don't the correct hints & signs.

i can't interpret as well as;
nor can i read your mind.

so please;
please tell me how you feel & think.

i want need to know.
i'm here to help: it's my duty(:


don't ever, ever let me go;

all the time;
i've seen others happily together.

mrt,buses,shopping centres,libraries,school,pavement walks;
they're simply everywhere.

& i stood one corner;
at the back,watching.

when would it be my turn?
when would the empty seat beside me be taken?

days,weeks,months,years go by;
& yes,it's my turn.

& right now;
the whole world is watching me us instead.

xox;♥ace
P.S:i'm starting a countdown to saturday!
i can curb this no more;
it's making me burst out.

i want the whole world know that i have you,
you're finally, finally mine.

but i won't.
i could,but it'll risk everything.

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for eros

When you love,
May you feel the joy
Of your heart coming alive
As your lover's gaze
Lands on your eyes,
Holding them,
Like the weight of a kiss,
Deepening.

May the words of love
Reach you and fluster
Your held self,
The way of a silhouette of breeze
Excites a meadow.

When you are touched,
May it be gentleness
You desire,
Your lover's hands sending
Each caress deep into your skin
Like a dicovering glance.

May slow sequences
Of kisses discover
Your secret echos.

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May your desire flow free
And never be fettered
By thorn-chains
Of guilt
Or crippled touch.

May you feel
How your soul loves
When your skin glows,
And your eyes darken
When promise ripens.

In the gaze of your lover,
May you see clearer
In the mirror
Of your own being.

May the silences
Be spaces where you
Can gather swiftly,
At ease with all
The subtle complexity.

May you be able to listen
To your lover's heartbeat
And think only of the joy
You can awaken.

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May you be able
To let yourself fall
Into the ocean rhythm,
Unfolding ever more
Until you become
One crest of wave,
Rising into wild orm
Whose beauty will show
In the graceful sweep
Of its home-breaking.

by John O'donohue, Benedictus; A Book of Blessings.



too close for comfort;

the butterflies flew free,
& you feel like you're flying with them.

the magic cast was dangerous;
you heart compresses & explodes into motion.

your pulse races & blood gushes;
you're tingling everwhere you're touched.

your dark side is breaking free.
your are close to revealing your monster.

your desire;
your devil-ish creature.

the chains are breaking loose,
and it shall soon be unleashed.

it was the ultimate torture.
& you're addicted to it.

xox;♥ace
P.S: not so innocent anymore.. ..but you still haven't seen the real me-
but this is as far as it can get.
its only been one day apart & im feeling miserable :/
seriously.

i tried distrating myself from my original distration..
& i got distracted..

i realised that my speed at reading a 500+ paged book slowed dramatically.
my mind was elsewhere..& so is my heart.

is this even normal?
can missing one person kill you slowly from inside?

god-
i feel abnormally weird now that you aint by my side.

either you've been casting a spell on me,
or you drugged me somehow;

i can't help feeling bound to you
or desperately need another dose of contact.


if only there's a secret garden-

before it's too late;
someone send me to a rehabilitation centre..
im gravely addicted-

j mpwf zpv tp nvdi
uibu ju't tdbsjog nf opx.

only you can decrypt this.

xox;♥ace
its an exhausting day alright.
& had to entertain avina too xD

like i said;
i already screw up my PerceptionCognition term test :/
was emo-ing & depressed.. ..

well...only for a short period of time.
all thanks to that sudden surprise :p


never gonna forget that first;

do it again;
i wont be smiling.

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i would be glowing for the rest of the week.

*shakes head*
still too embarrassed :/

looks like only time will tell again.

xox;♥ace
P.S: you know me oh-too-well.
totally decided not to focus on PerCog until later.
was watching ChickenLittle on disney channel ;p

hey!ure not the only distraction?
cartoons blow my mind away xD

im gonna ace today's test..
but majorly screw up tmr's.

im sorry Dr. Tan! :/
althou' i kind of like PerCog since u teach it..


"if u wanna be my lover; you've got to give.."

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i wonder if i could get that butterfly feeling again.

don't pull me too close.. ..i'd get a major heart attack xD
on second thoughts..
please do.

thank the lord im destined to be tanned.
never in your lifetime would you see me turn pink.
but on third thoughts..

i realise i have a bad habit for not wanting to look into your eyes;
i must be smiling too irritatingly,
or im just really, really embarrassed to let you see me blush embarrassed shy(?)

that's another part of me you don't know;
which i just found out also today.

mi manchi;♥

xox;♥ace
P.S: just a lil' longer..
never thought id use this picture but.. ...


gonna..hallucinate.

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& i thought i would be so happy today.

xox;♥ace
isnt this more exciting & nervous.

im keeping a huge,enormous,gigantic secret.
and the secret is..


..you.(:

did i mention?
i like your different,funny expressions.

they make me laugh.
it's that easy to make me smile.

shh...!

only [big]teddy(Mori-senpai) knows.

xox;♥ace
P.S:let me be lucky,just for the next 4 days.
dont exactly know why i still feel so calm when im laggin' behind.
i should be fretting & pulling my hair at this rate im going.
but well;im still fooling around,
trying so hard to balance on a 2-wheel skateboard for the past 1-2hour.

term test in 2days-
my revision?*shrugs*
why again am i not panicking?
well.cause im a werido.(i think.)

all the time i see others strugglin' with school work & other activities.
& i thought to myself: why in the first place pull yourself down or distract yourselves with so much commitment?
since you chose that path..you should be happy with your decision?

& here i am;
finally like them;struggling with school work & those other activities-
apart from being deprived from many good nights sleep,
i feel oh-so-fine.

and this coming exams isnt exactly making me feel stressed :/
its not like i want to fail by not studying.
i want to maintain my GPA of 3.0 and above;
but hey,life is awesome.

i know how much work i put in & am always satisfied with what i got.
i admit ive never aimed for the top,
i study cause i just dont wanna be at the bottom xD
middle,average,plain & simple B is enough for me.

but waitttt.
maybe i cant study cause you're also on my mind everytime.
instead of anxiety & anxiousness;
its always bliss & happiness that fills my heart when i think about you rather than those chunky, impossible-to-understand- words from the textbook & notes.

overwhelmed overtaken by the positive emotions;
you can say its a bad thing, or a good thing.
its distracting me from my work.
but hey,its another life experience,& im enjoying every minute of it.

see here mum;
im enjoying every minute second of it.
im still a rebellious kid, teenageer, young adult, whatever-
like Mr Thomas said,im still at the age of doing stupid things, risky things, dangerous things, things that might cause harm;
even thou' WE know it's wrong, heck, we're still doing it.

its fun to torment your parent sometimes.
oh.ethics.
its fun to torment your parents to a certain extent sometimes.
*laughs*

not exactly looking forward for monday's test.
but im still waiting for monday to come(:
so i can see you then.


sunny girl-still smiling :D

xox;♥ace
my family is back from Malaysia :D
happy unhappy happy happy happy.
*laughs*

there goes my 'silent' house.
& the amount of time i get to spend with you.
*laughs*

happy happy happy.
1. soccer ball
2. new, small, brown backpack
3. hair clips
4. (pirated) CDs
5. hoodie shirt(sharing with sis)
6. family members all SAFE & SOUND (:

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bracing for the impact xD

last hoodie pic ;p

xox;♥ace
P.S: cant wait for the december holidays. *LAUGHS*
i should be putting studies first;
but good lord;
im unable to do so :/


yes;i can forget the world,just for you.

can you?

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im gonna flunk this term's tests.
sigh-

buck up grace!
buck up!!!!!!!!!! xD

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im soooooo gonn win the 3rd round ;p
heh.
(not telling)

xox;♥ace
P.S:just a lil' while longer.. ...
heheh.

ive just change my wallpaper from this:


to this:


(im sorry keith.)
*laughs*

where i got it from:
http://tiffanyanddave.deviantart.com/gallery/

well;
even thou the resolution isnt as good as yours;
& i do admit yours is better,
i like (all types of) leopards more ;p

xox;♥ace
P.S:omg;supperr dupper distrated.there goes my night :/
omg;
i just ate so much for dinner :X
servings for two-three persons.

i guess im recovering rather fast xD
my appetide is coming back~

i miss eating junk & letting my big O' stomach digest whatever xD
i could jus grab anything & eveything & -MUNCH-
(yummyyy ;p)

bet i can fully recover by this weekend.
and till then;
*licks lips*

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i shall aim till..
next year! xD

did i jus see a dejected look on your face?
*laughs*

let time decide.. ..
since i like the way things are now.
*laughs*

I shall make this vow to myself:
1. Limit myself for being online till 11.30pm
2. Use the laptop for max 2hours(@ home)!
-vow breaks after end of next week-

2nd last 'hoodie' pic :/

well then;
it's time to do APsyLP1..
& squeeze in a lil' revision.

xox;♥ace
P.S:excuse me; but i definately DO use soap when i shower. & i dont use 1hour.i use 20mins to shower(& wash hair) + 15mins to blow-dry my lovely hair xD
i need to stop misunderstanding;
else it'll cause a bad,bad strain.

it's either im wayy too sensitive;
or i really really care about how people thinks.

well;i have my reasons-

its because i care.
if i care so much; it means you're important to me.

i care cause ure opinion matters.
i care cause i want to listen & learn.
i care cause i want to hear your point of view.

i care;cause you bothered to comment.
i care cause i know you love (me) enough to think for me(:

no;im not talking about you ;p


get lost in my eyes! :D

im still sick :/
*cough coughs*

& still felt rather left out even thou' you darls included me in(:
i know.

i have a brain that thinks like a snail (or maybe slower).
& im not as smart or hardworking-

but im trying kkays?
im trying to catch up.

althou i like things slow paced.
i guess i have to push myself hard;

well.. ...after i get well ;p

xox;♥ace
P.S:no no;im jus paranoid.