im backk--
from china,from hoildays from watever.
too many things had happen and i dont think words can describe.

so i'll jus type in whatever i remember..

so..u've known.i lost 1500+ yuan in Xi'an.(S$300+)
yes.i really have to take my hat off that theif.
he/she really picked my lugguage and took me wallet!
*cries.
oh get over it.

as usual..
lao po went out with me.
'lao po's'' actually.
hohos.

last sunday,
ive got a Judokan MAKAN at fengshan CC.
fried rice.fried noodles.sweet & sour chicken.honey-chicken.mushrooms.broccoli.hawaian pizza.lemonade.
u wont believe it but i really ate all those things (:
go graces!
was hoping he would come.
looks like dissappointment took over me.
but i didnt lose hope.

monday.
i'll remeber this day forever.
yuki.momo's BFF smsed..
and i discovered something i wanted very much to know but was afaid to know at the same time.
its was a one-sided love.
i didnt feel like chatting anymore.
i was right.
they were jerks.idiots.freaks.
i was living in self-denail? all this while.

as usual.
rolled up into a ball and clenched fists.
hiding under the blankets,
hidden in the darkness;
drowning sorrow.
i knew its all along..just thati refused to believe it.
how dense.
im the one who's an idiot.

i'd rather hear him say 'i hate u' than waiting for another answer.
it would have pained me less.
seriously.

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school's tomorrow and im SO not prepared.
SO not prepared for 'O' levels.
SO not prepared to revise.
SO not prepared to study with the smarties in $)^.
SO not prepared to admit in a sec 4.
SO not prepared to throw my feelings away.
SO not prepared to face reality.the truth.my future.