title: god,ithankyou,iloveyou,itrustyou.myfateliesinyourhumblehands.

if you happened to see me yesterday or today,
im cheery.gay.excited.smiling.energized.
i was..happy.
purely.

i cant sleep till it was 1am.

imgaine.
your wish came true.

its too good to be true.
you wondered..
will it end someday?

we're trying to work it out.
see if we can be together.
cross my fingers.
you give it till end of this year to try out.
you pray that it doesnt interfere my studies and my O levels.

will i change my mind longterm?
will YOU change your mind?
will we come to find that we werent meant to be together?
maybe we will.but its ot fated.

you're leaving..in two years.
it'll difficult by then..wouldnt it?
then i'll be in my polly.
what if i find someone new in my new enviroment?
will i have a chnage of heart?
would you be unhappy?
what would you do?
what will I do?

would you give me your best wishes?
feel betrayed?
fight me back?
leave again and never to return?

ive been thinking.
the reson im distracted all day:
happy but dazed-
would i be found out?
is it forbidden?
what if i changed my mind?
what if there isnt enough patience?

i knew that it wont last.
if it did,it'll most likely only be two years.
you know how much i felt for you.
its burried deep within--

i admit.ive been surpressing it for very long.
too long.but i tried.
true.ive always want to watch your back.
thats all i ever wanted.
to tell you whats right from wrong.
change develop you to a better person.
im immature,i have no expereince.
forgive me if i dont expect to be what i shouldve be.

you cant blame me--
im too young.i wanna try EVERYTHING.(yes..sky-diving)
ive gone throu many life experience..
my accounts hacked,betrayed,went to the police for my items being stolen,black mark for vandalising,a near-death experience(stepping on sea-urchin & high-fever)..
i looked back and laughed.
looks like having someone who'll hold your hand will be added into the list.

but jus get out of my head.will you?
im afraid i couldnt let you go.
i couldnt.
its difficult.very.
when its time to part,it'll be an EXTREMELY bigg blow.
so sometimes id rather be alone.and not suffer from any setbacks.

see.
yes,i admit im a coward.
i avoid going into a realtionship.
im scared.
im always not prepared.
i never do.
i think too much.but i follow my heart more than my head -,-

but ive made up my mind.
i giving it a go.
but please,please stop being in my mind every day hour minute second.
i cant study for nuts in that state you know?!?!?!?
im like sooooooo darned distracted.
im not good at controlling my feelings.
sure sure.im an open-book.
without doubt.
i easy to read.(like ABC,like 123.)

imagine..

inspired by my favourite aunt (:
she's getting maaried this year in november!
i cant attend T^T
darn the 'O' LEVELS! GAHHHHHHH.
but im soooooooooooooooo gladddd to see her!

except for the part when she said i grew fatter -,-
said my tummy/arms gotten BIGGERR.
ARGHH.elephant! -,-

spend ytd and today in a dazee.
better start my hw tomorrow.
else i'll really kill myself.
GAHH.what have i gotten myself into?!?

P.S: ignore this post.its..random & untterly nonsensical. (:
P.SS: was listening to..Hoobastank: The reason.

♥Ace