Title: welcome to my life world

It hurts.
Im last on your list?
Am i really that unworthy?
Is there ANYTHING ELSE that i dont know?

i went swimming today: 140 metres.
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one person;
two ears;
three ladders;
four corners;
five toes.

resurface.
lets restart.

one soul;
two eyes;
three steps;
four walls;
five fingers.

resurface.
do it again.

one mind;
two personalities;
three bubbles;
four directions;
five senses.

yes.
my mind is clear.

a person in the water feels different.
its like being in another dimension.
all your can see is transparent blue waters,
hear your lungs releasing air,
taste the chlorine waters,
coldness is all you could feel.
you cant breathe.
you're underwater.

resurface.
bigger breath;dive.

imagine yourself in the ocean.
very far away from civilisation.
far, far, far away.isolation.
you're in the water.
all you see is yourself,with the other souls(fishes)
imagine the sea bed covered with sand,fine stones,shells.
the sunlight shone right into the sea.
the seabed shimmers.
all you hear is the music of the sea--the echo transmitted by whale.
your second touch- the shells.the clamps.the corals.the corse sand drifting out of your fingers.

resurface.
reality.no..
go back in.

i lay in the bottom of the sea.
no one to disturb me,
no one to correct me:

is that what you can say?
you cant trust me?
yes.we have just met and we're not very close.
but do i look like one who'll blabber?
yes.i was immature the last time and still am now.
but im older.wiser.i think more.(obviously)
i learned my mistake.
once bitten,twice shy.is that how you say it?
i wont blabber;i wont stare.
i promise i wouldnt even laugh.
i wouldnt look,hear,see,touch or taste the excitement.

resurface.
hurry..the sun is setting.

its not really about the trust.
its about faith.
must you so tense up?
mus you get so worried about their..or rather HIS arrival?
im hurt.yet i smile.
fine.tape my mouth.
i picked but a shell and admired the pattern.
i lay front-wards onto the seabed and sealed it with a kiss.

the floor was hard and cold.
i resurfaced.
buildings over-towered me.
i hear people cooking and talking.
there was no shore,no sunshine,no vast ocean.

i was back in my swimming pool.
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chorus:

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
the be kicked when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no one's there to save you
no you dont know what it's like
welcome to my life

do you wanna be somebody else? (seldom.a whale maybe)
are you sick of feeling so left out?
are you desperate to find something more? (too much.)
before your life is over
are you stuck inside a world you hate? (id rather be with the fishes)
are you sick of everyone arond? (ehhhhhhh..)
with their big fake smiles and stupid lies (not really)
while deep in side you're bleeding

no you dont know what its like
when nothing feels all right
you dont know what its like
to be like me..

con't

♥Ace