Title:different worlds.

everybody is different (like duhh.)
but your friends and you share a common..activity?
yeah.
but i guess she and i..
are too different.

she's intellectually inclined.
and i..not really.

i used to look up to her..
until she told a lie.
i forgive her because i understood why she did it.

is that actaully the reason why i dont want her close to me?
no.

she's a nice girl.
aware of her responsibilities.
she loves her friends.
she..kinda good at everything.

no im not jealous.
but i dont seem to have a liking for her.

she tries very hard to be a good friend.
she teaches me science.
Emath.Amath.
she knows what's right and wrong.

she's such a good person.
why dont i like her like the way i like gabby,grace,suleen..?
im myself with these people.
i hold their hand,hug them,tickle them,tease them.
sure,she poked me too.

but we're like opposite poles.
i repel.
i dont like her touching me;
even if she leans over to teach.

maybe im paranoid.
im sorry.
i dont know what makes me not like you like the rest of my buddies.
sure,u're my friend too,

but why oh why am i building a wall btw us?

she's good in music.
i love musicians.
she knows alot of things..general knowledge to music.
i dont.

she's excellent at sceince,math,english.
me,at art,geog,chinese.

she reads..the dictionay.i dont know.
i read -comic books-

she doesnt play a fool like me.
i know what im doing is wrong;
im lazy.playful.stubborn.
she bears my attitude & all.

our worlds are too diferent.
she's miss oh-so-perfect.
almost.

im not aiming for perfection but improvement.
she can go to top-ranked JCs.
i dont plan going all the way up there.
but if i want to,i can.

so,what IS the problem,really?
tell me.
im desperate to find out.
maybe i dont like the way she snort.
maybe i dont speak in her laguage.
maybe im bias.

genius people should stay away from me.
maybe i still got this boundary.
clever people should stay away from dumb-O people like me.
they're good & im badd.

we live in different worlds.
maybe that's it.

it's jus like that.
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fustrating.
one moment i love you to bits,
one moment i doubt everything u've said.
im going to forget you.
but im not giving up making you become a better person.

i'll admit.
sometimes,i look over to the otherside during recess.
sometimes,i look over to the otherside when im doing my work.
today,i looked over to the otherside during art.
the window was wide open.
and i HAD to glance up jus to check that u might b passing by.

but you were never there.

at times,
i wonder where you are.
what you are doing then,
who you're with.
are you thinking abt me jus like i am abt you?
i want to get you outta my head.
but i cant.
its difficult.
i glanced at the otherside again.

orange is my fav' colour.
but it doesnt look good painted on the otherside.
the shade doesnt match the whole..
it looks like painted vomit.

but i never stop looking at the otherside and stop wondering.
abt you.

♥Ace.
Ttitle: The reason

this is it:
wanna hear the good news,or the bad?

bad?

alright.

i cant wont be your girlfriend.
sorry.

good news?

i love you.
i cant live without you.
i cant bear to see you go.
i like it when you're by my side.

but im sorry.

i just dont feel the same way i used to the last time.

sure.
i wanna hold your hand.
i wanna see you smile.
i want you to be happy.
i want to protect you.

i want to change your life.

i would do anything for your sake.
its not because you've my love.
i already said.
but i dont feel the same way i used to anymore.
its too late.

i already took you as my older brother.
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i'm not a perfect person.
there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning.
i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go,
that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me,
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you

i'm sorry that i hurt you,
its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through,
i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears,

thats why i need you to hear
i've found a reason for me,
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you

i'm not a perfect person.
i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go,
that i just want you to know
i've found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

i've found a reason to show
a side of me you didnt know
a reason for all that i do,
and the reason is you
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gabby: my dearest ♥
grace: my lover ♥
michelle: my pillar of courage ♥
andrea: my happiness ♥

ariel.suleen.sheng chuan.michelle.queenie.hazel.rachel: my precious.

family & god: my all ♥

jun: darling brother.my sweetheart. ♥

♥ Ace