im tired.
too tired.
tired of keeping everything to myself.
lying that everything would be okkay.

i caught myself looking at jun mo's profile in friendster.
hellooo.aint i over him?
i didnt know it takes THIS long to..let go?

i dont know.
im very sure i hold no more feelings for him.
but i see anger fury when i see hear his name.

yeah,it's getting old.and very boring.
such a clinging woman!
i find this part myself disgusting.
one or none huh?
nah.

i cant understand them.

oh-my-god.
im SICK of myself typing this all over and over and over again.
i cant cry anymore cause i cant seem to find those tears.

even taking a dive in the pool doesnt seem to help.
my imagination of corals and fishes didnt appear.
only the hard and cold bottom of the pool.

i leap,i kick,i twist and held my breath.
nothing seems to make me free.
i dont even know what im trying to break away from.

or am i simply trying to escape from my fears?
failure & rejection- worst nightmare.
what am i running from?

i wanna go to temasek poly if i cant make it to a JC.
i hope i could get into the psychology section.
yes,interest in human behaviour & reactions.
i know what i wanna do now.

if i cant make it to become a psychologist,
i'll be your very own counsellor.
dont laugh.

will not update anytime.
love,grace,who is feeling very random.