sick.
sick in the head;
sick in the lungs;
sick in the throat;

but love sick in the heart.

*laughs*

slight fever of 37.8 degrees xD
was freezing cold & shivering during lecture in school :/
thank god Naida lent me her leather jacket :D

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its kinda sad when no-one knows;
& we have to contrain & hide it huh?
dont know how long i can resist.

jus a lil' longer;i promise xD

i feel..so...sleepy..
so..very..drowsy..
my eye lids are..closing..


if only we can go home together like this;

dont like taking medicine :/
i have to swallow pills.
ughh.

this sick person here wants a BIG warm, teddy-bear hug xD
come come;surrender yourself ;p

xox;♥ace
P.S: im soooo gonna screw up for nxt week's term test.
yet another unproductive day :/
had lunch at my father's friend's house-
house warming 'party'.

ate a whole lot xD


im gonna wear this on monday xD

my very own hoodie picture.
*laughs*


look at our faces.(priceless! xD)

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omg;
i miss holding your hand xD


& this is darned cute can.(taken frm keith's tumblr xD)

xox;♥ace
P.S: im so proud of you(:
such an un-productive day.
time didnt wait for me today :/

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"absence makes the heart grow fonder"

well what do you know!
finally grasped the real meaning of it xD

for another time;
the post today shall be short one(:


the colour's black today.

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i realise im one who doesnt really regret my decisions in life.
well,that's cause im always thinking it throu'

i only make the wrong choices(sometimes)-

but there is NO wrong or right choices.
you'll learn something new with every path that you take.

so don't fear & keep looking forward;

you would learn how to sacrifice,
how to endure, how to strive & be brave.

cause "what doesn't kill you;makes you stronger".

see here;
i'm alive & kicking.

for there's always someone behind you,
watching your back if you happen to fall.

xox;♥ace
P.S: overload of chocolates in my tummy :/
yes;i finally met up with my secondary school darlings :D :D
Gabriela Gan,Michelle Lim & Grace Lum (:
oh the M.G3 lurve xD

unfortunately;the bulk of today's photos are with Gabby;
so we'd have to wait for them to be uploaded into FB.
and of course;
finally;
a picture of me wearing a hoodie.

*laughs*

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im bad at interpreting :/
really.


im the mann xD

endured the awfully acute pain in my stomach the whole day;
& sucessfully SMILED the entire day(:

momo said im too 'manly';
*laughs*
didnt want to take panadol to control/minimise pain like her.

well;pain makes you feel alive;
right?
pain tells me that im alive for a reason ;p

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fortunately;somebody gets to keep their card.
well;for now xD

anywax;i realised that typing out descriptions for (negative) feelings was so easy compared to (positive) feelings.
i wonder how to express 'happy' in a more..awesome way xD

lets try;shall we? :D

"in cloud nine".

*laughs*
failed miserably.

well;why not this:

"...she understood that love was a feeling completely bound up with colour, like thousands of rainbows superimposed one on top of the other."
-by Paulo Coelho: Brida.

(not that im totally immersed in love with you THAT much yet;)
but hey! i simply like the sentence & hence i put it up here.
hope i can 'produce' a phrase like this next time O:

i still need to improve my vocabulary & grammer & what nots.

did badly for RMA quiz :(
14/25 (i didnt look-through & check my answers)
so its my fault for being careless! xD

its gonna be a busybusy weekend :/
need to start on my work & revision.
-sigh!

want to go Marine Parade Library with me? :D

xox;♥ace
P.S:remind me to no spend anymore this month! xD
i shall take forever to post;
horray! :D

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i dont know how fast is 'too fast'
or how slow is 'too slow'.
so... ..am i going too fast or too slow?

purely impatient to get what i want?
i noticed.
but dont worry;im adjusting myself-

unfortunately;
i dont have a 'rewine' or 'pause' button;
so;i guess i'd let it be

i got the planner that i wanted♥
i can throw my old planner away~away~away~!!
absolutely fabulous.

too bad;
apparently;the sale was over
& somebody isn't able to get what they want.


nvm;get this kkay?
*hint hint*

meeting my DARLINGS tomorrow(:
im broke!
but;im still going!xD
time for some serious updates.

xox;♥ace
P.S:i cant find anymore good hoodie photos :/
back under popular demand.
that'll be 3 posts in one day!

you owe me somethingx3.
yes;im that greedy;
if you haven't noticed.

avina tan came to my house today :D
totally missed her too!
it has been at least a month since we talked
about anything & everything under the sun moon.

so far;
8 people + god knows.
gg;i hope the number doesnt rise.

the WORST tide is almost over;
& i still have these things to do:

1.Find perception cognition articles
2.Read & do percog assignment 1
3.Read RshMtd textbook in preparation
4.Do RshMtd quiz 3 & 4 online
5.Study Physiopsychology
6.Study Perception Cognition
7.Improve Introduction for APsyLP1
8.Do Basic Financial Accounting tutorials

that's for school.
& for my personal stuff;
i wanna:

1.Buy new 2010 planner
2.Design poster/banner for HSSSC
3.Hearbal Essence Shampoo
4.Go out with M.G.3 on friday
5.Sleep all day on saturday
6.& maybe something else.

oh wait.

7.Eat tiramisu(:

i know right.

xox;♥ace
P.S:no,not mine yet.
sometimes;knowing too much is a bad thing.
the more you know,
the less you realise you actually know.

i feel so unstable recently.
no;
the right word should be;
insecurity.

& i thought i'd never experience this emotion.i thought everything would go so smoothly like that of a comic book.but im wrong.is it always this hard for first times?am i suppose to ask too many questions?or jus leave the way things are & let time tell the answers?should i jus grab your hand?or do i have to ask for it properly?should i jus close my eyes & snuggle up into your arms?or do i jus watch earnestly from behind & wait for the time to come?& yet again;i dont know what to do.

if you would hug me longer;

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i want to hear your heart beat ever so quickly for me.

xox;♥ace
P.S: not mine yet.
happy birthday Janell Kwok;
my lovely,lovely PSY senior (:

you'll be loved by me;
yesterday,today,tomorrow.

xox;♥ace
i want to....(:

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.

but no;not now.


be mine!

hoodies;
you can hide my smiling eyes.

this way;
he can't read & tease me so much ;p

right;you won the second battle,
they said you've got the upper-hand.
jus wait & see babe;
wait & see.

third round's mine.

xox;♥ace
P.S: if only ... ... .... .... longer;yet.
it hurts real bad.

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i dont think i could pretend anymore


& the picture says it all;

i wanted so much to cry;
but i decided i shouldn't act like an immature child.

it was hell of a bus ride;
i cant imagine how dazed one can look

i cant help it;
im still a human;aint i?

sensitive girl,
a beating heart full of overwhelming emotions;
almost uncontrollable.

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"..from now on, whenever you want to find out about something, plunge straight in."
-by Paulo Coelho: 'Brida'

xox;♥ace

Tanami & Mitsuki: "that..expression...Tsuzuki lost?"
Mitsuki:"What did haru do..?"that jerk!
Tanami: "..to our Tsuzuki?!"unforgivable psycho freak!
Tanami & Mitsuki: "Let's find that bloody bastard!!!That stupid psycho freak!!"
Tsuzuki:..what are they talking about..?
-by Gabriela Gan: 'School Chicks' xD
E.G.G property!copyrighted!(*laughs*)

i feel so much better now;
when i imagine how my BFFs will react if we're in the same school.
*more laughter*
im back from i-guides camp & its freakin' AWESOME(:
well;my guild(BORON) has the NICEST & FUNNIEST & OUT-GOING people;
id totally enjoy hanging out with them sometime;
(im sorry Rinkus!;p)

school's tomorrow;
another week of chaos.
im soooo not looking forward to the deadlines :/
but i look forward seeing you

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my heart doesnt beat so much now;

but im really really happy;
with you next to me.

is it okkay?


act cute. :D

xox;♥ace
P.S:more hoodies soon(:
i waited;
& i won the first battle(:

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i guess its a relief;
the cat is out of the bag
& im back being the old;
silly;
sunny;
me.

i would dance with the rain;
sing to the earth;
& walk in the breeze hand in hand.



you're right.
i look so weird smirking & surpressing my laugh at the same time.
grace song's irritating smile.
tsk. xD

hoodies rock my KC socks♥
[i feel randomly happy.so shut up & smile with me(: ]

xox;♥ace
P.S: i cant live without deviantart xD
恶作剧之吻: 靠近一点点

默默在你的身后守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我努力让你感动

在你眼中有多么笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执着
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受

能不能再靠近一点点
大声说出你所有感觉
别在紧紧关在只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接

能不能再靠近一点点
能不能再勇敢一点点

就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢
笑着和你说再见

xox;♥ace
i know.
its amazing right.
3 posts all in one day.
i mustve have too much to swallow.

but its still not time to spill it all out ;p

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what's wrong with liking a person?
plenty.

Your heart feels so heavy, peirced & hurting so badly when you miss him, but still pounding against your chest so hard that you can't breathe properly. You feel so weak, so vulnerable, all you want is the one you love & you can't resist your urges to want to speak to him every day hour minute second. Your brain is so weak & the sudden surges of dopamine levels make you feel so silly & giddy. You can't think properly cause all your colourful emotions swirl together in an enormous mess which still can be percieved like psychadellic colours on the canvas board with paint. Your knees go weak & you just can't help but also want to hold them so near, close to your arms; all you can hear is their heart beating against yours. And a just a whiff of their scent, makes you crazy, wanting for more.

its like an addiction.
& the cold-turkey for this;
priceless pain.

xox;♥ace
staring at the rain falling from the sky.
i don't know what to do anymore.

she's right.
i'm going to wait.
& i'm going to win this fight.

it may seem like a joke to you;
but two can play in that game.

im not gonna lose.
never (:<

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one breath,two breath,three breaths.
why give up now when it hasn't started?
im not gonna be scared.
no,not anymore.

im going from defender;
to forwards.

xox;♥ace
P.S:i can never ever read your mind;can i?
if you havent noticed;
im really such a stubborn mule.
get over it(:

and yeahh;i like how the way things are now.
im trying.
just trying.
still trying.

dont give up on me yet.

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dont.

xox;♥ace
i like him.
& i think he knows.
im freakin' out cause i dont know what to do.

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it's almost unbearable.
dont know how to surpress it anymore :/

it's not that i feel uncomfortable;
its jus that i dont know what to say/do.

acting dumb is not my thing.
and talking too much is not me.
my head is screaming at me:DANGER!DANGER!
be careful of what you say & what you do!
if you screw this up;i cant help you!

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stepping back;i realised something about me.i do admit that there has been guys going after me.& i know that i could return the feelings.but i just cant.i cant;icant;i cant;i cant.im scared.i have been hurt real badly that one time & i vowed never to trust them again.ever.im so afraid of being so sad again that i didnt want to leave my shell of comfort & just wanna stay in there protected against these feelings.before all of them become too close;i totally blocked them out.it was selfish of me but it hurts me too.you may say its my fault that i cant let go.but i felt like i had no other choice.i dont know what else to do.

i dont know.
i really;really dont know.

im falling deeper & deeper.
should i pull myself back up like i always did?
or jus let go;& face the full impact that ive always been avoiding all my life?
somebody tell me what to do;please.

xox;♥ace
P.S:the imaginaery person in my head IS keeping me from loving the real on in front of me.well;most of the times.(snatched frm keith's tumblr. ;p)
hello dudes!
i knowwwww.its been a long time since i blogged again :/
well;blame it on twitter.

i wanted to blog ytd;
but i decided to try something new;
you know,like twitter,
so i twittered.

haha!
give me some time to figure out how to put a twitter box into blogger..
and you'd see me on it everyday..
since its more of random thoughts & everything.

unlike blogger,i dont have to type out long paragraphs
and keep my thoughts in order.
id jus 'sentence' whatever i want :D
for now;jus go to: twitter.com/grac3ling (:

time for the more serious part of my post

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her card-reading says it all.
and i didnt dare see his face.
thank god its the last thing he'd ever think about.
thank god.

but id get over him soon..
maybe.i hope.i pray.
the consequences may not be as bad as yours;
but i cant imagine the potential tension.

it started tingling.
the bad omen.
the annoying,irritating,unwanted feeling.
jealousy is at its work -once again-

that's why i always put love away.

xox;♥ace
P.S:"RAWRR!" means 'i love you' in dinosaur(:
how does it feel when you want somebody or something so badly;
but you just can't have em'?

it's that bad huh.
that bad.

& it really hurts.

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how does it feel when you're torn apart 2 decisions;
you cannot do this or that.

it's like finding yourself losing direction.
don't know where to go.

& you're alone.

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and jus because i'm a girl.

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how weak.
how pathetic.



like i have any other choice.

xox;♥ace
P.S:THANKS Josepth,Keith,Nicholas,Ruben & Zi Xiang for dinner(:
life's like this.

it's a packed week for grace song xD
packed.blissfull & stressed.

ahaha.
i am SO NOT gonna list what im supposed to do by this week.
so lets jus go throu what i have done today;
shall we?(:

APsyLP1.
well;i did not listen during the lecture.
(sorry mr. chua :p)

meeting with ms Tze min.
1.40pm-3.15pm.
(it was like hell.)
no other words needed-
my mind was filling up with projectprojectprojectworks.
deadlines.articles.journals.meetings.minutes.rules.deadlines.
gg.

IO Psy with Mr Elijah Wee.
at least i can take a breather xD
we did case studies today.
i love it alot :D even thou' i probably cant ace this subject :/
we'll see!

as usual;showered @ swimming complex xD

choir at 7pm!
darius didnt come =,=
typical!
sectionals!(:

both my mortals came today.
good good.
hahha!
both my angels STILL didnt give me anything):
sad saddddddd.

ended at 8.35pm today.
rather early;
played a round of pool with Javier..& Stanely(?)

and blissfully;
Matthew sent me home today! xD
cause he lives in Siglap.
andd since he drove his mother's car to work today;
(and came to school for choir,)
i had a lift xD
-grace song is darned well-pampered-
:D :D :D :D (can u feel the irritating wide smile gabby?) :D :D :D :D

well;things jus follow after one another.
hardy smsed me if i wanna take bus with him home that tonight.
(GG!i already got home early! xD)
Leon smsed me if he could take bus with me tml morn'.
(*laughs*)
i jus felt 'extra-special' tonight larh.
haha.

thats all folks(:

xox;♥ace
P.S:looking forward for soccer this friday(:

song intro-ed by keith O:

louispang - daniel ho - i do.mp3 -