there.just barely 2 minutes, i feel bad for what i posted.
no,i'm not taking it down.

reading it makes me reflect.
guilt has now officially washed over me cause i can't breathe properly and my heart is heavy. i will have to make it up to him, it's not easy but i'll try.

thank you lord, for giving me freedom to think,
freedom to type,
freedom to feel,
freedom to express,

and freedom to choose to forgive and repent.

xox;♥ace
all out, i feel so much better.
for being me.

xox;♥ace

P.S: i'm back to being un-myself.

*disclaimer: don't mind my fucking language*

screw you.

i was fucking wrong about all this.

i know can never be in the center of your world.
i was a hundred years dumb to cling to that idea.

i didn't know it'll be so hard.
as the time pass, the ugly side of us springs.

i know that accepting this part of me took alot.
accepting me for who i am takes a whole shit love, patience.

but it may be falting.
i know, every once a month;
i'll be this bitch who'll screw your life.
i demand too much and give too little.
i'm this living nightmare that throw tantrums-
i get pissed with those i love.

i'll hate the world for being better than me.
i'm suppose to be better than everyone else.
i'm the fucking one in charge and you better obey-
i know shit that i should just go to hell.

for today, just for today,
i don't give a fuck for being the good, non-judgmental girl.
i don't want to forgive and fucking forget.
i hate you for -indirectly- saying that to me.

i'm going to bear a fucking grudge.
heck if i live in guilt for the rest of my life.
i hate telling people in the face for what shit they did.

i also hate keeping it to myself when im fucking pissed.
so here's my blog space to say what i fucking want.

i'm tired, i'm stressed out. and this is how i express my fucking emotions.
GETTING ANGRY AT PEOPLE.
so judge me.

i expect the whole world to do my homework.
there, i said it.

yes, i expected you to do my dirty shit for me.
yes, i use people with every opportunity i've got.

i put up a nice front so that people trust me.
fuck, it works everytime.

i've always been extremely careful about 'keeping my face ass'.
but yes, for today, screw it.

i may regret it if people see this.
but fuck, whatever.
thank you for reading,fuck you for judging me.

ace.