i'm not writing this because i know he'll be here.
i'm writing this because blogger, you're the only one who'll listen & not judge.

it hurts.so bad.
the moment he found out,
everything seems to just collapse

when he said he doesn't trust me anymore,
my heart broke.

i seems like everything will not go back to how it used to be
i feel like a stranger to him

everything i say seems like a lie
whatever feelings i show now feels fake to him

i tried to stay the way i am
but it fees like nobody knows who i am anymore

i don't know who i am anymore.
for sure, i'm no longer innocent.

now i know i can charm.
and he knows that too.

he'll never believe me when i cry again.
he'll probably think it's an act to gain sympathy

he'll never believe me when i say i miss you
he'll probably think i miss something physical

he'll never believe me when i say i'm sorry
he'll probably think i'll cheat again

he'll never believe me when i say i love you
he'll probably think i don't even mean it.

what else can i do now?
someone please help me.

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dinner was good
but everything seems tasteless
i find it hard to swallow anything.

xox;♥ace