it has been awhile since i felt happy.
& i did, today.

even though i woke up late (10am)
i had a wonderful home-made macdonald breakfast with muffins,eggs,ham and pancakes.

at 11am, we rode to the nearby field for a games event.
carrying eggs on spoons, transferring water with a sponge and all that.
it was over by 2.30pm.

my team didn't win-it was a waste(we were in 4th place).
but i still felt glad.

the rest of the time spent was rather unproductive.
i made banana muffins, had a shower,a nap and ate.

its late now and i haven't done any studying.

but i feel great-
like a mildly satisfactory sensation of contentment.
whatever that means(:

it hard to describe.
it's like i have no responsibilities,
i don't have to care so much,
i don't have to worry.

it's like a huge load had been carried off my shoulders

i don't have to think about him no more,
i don't have to keep asking about his day,
or care so much about how he feels.

i don't have to plan for anniversaries,
or try to maintain my job of being a caring partner.
my heart is healing and soon, i can have it back whole.

and i don't have to give him my everything anymore.

i'm getting myself back.
i can finally be myself, unrestrained.

i am free; & life goes on.

xox;♥ace