i don't know what i'm doing.
am i taking the right course?

looking around,
i'm not particularly smart or passionate in studying.
i do try hard-
but i don't reap what i sow.

no matter how much i get back on my feet;
that distinction is far, far away.

i'm not a scholar- my fees are fully paid by my parents.
it feels like they're buying the education for me so that i can have better opportunities.
but i can't seem to do well.

i know i want to help people.
but am i passionate enough to do so?

is there another way i can help without studying this?

i can't use art as my backup plan.
i forgo that dream years ago.

what can i do with art?
i'm long behind anyone.

but i'm not interested in politics, mathematics, literature, medicine, agriculture and all that.
i only know i want to help people.
i want to understand them- not do research.

i like art.
i like stories.
i like baking.

what can i do to make a decent living?