i haven't been flustered
for the longest time.

don't blame me if i'm a little awkward-
it's been too long.

it feels like i'm betraying him-
but i already did.

maybe cause i owe him too much;
& caused too much grief, anguish and pain.

do i have the right to be happy,
when he's still suffering?

do i have the right to move on?
to leave him behind?

can i not care anymore?
if i did, will i truly become the bad guy?

or are you doing it on purpose,
knowing that i'm still lingering around;

you choose to say you're hurt & that you'll give everything up to have me back-
are you telling the truth?

or are you just doing it on purpose,
for revenge,
so that i can never fully move on & lift the weight on my shoulders?

i don't know who to believe anymore;
but moral of the story,

you don't know what you're getting into;
i cant be your sweetest dream,

but also your biggest nightmare.

but thank you, for giving me hope,
a chance for me to be a normal girl again.