disclaimer
Friday, May 17, 2013, Friday, May 17, 2013
letting you get closer doesn't mean i have any feelings.
it only means to show that i trust you.

wanting to hold your hand so badly doesn't mean i will.
it only means i miss being secure.

wanting to trap you under my spell doesn't mean i'm giving hints.
it may only mean you're a temporary substitute.

i'm not going to let anyone mess me up anymore while i'm still broken & fragile.
i'm still very much vulnerable. And i'm not letting anyone make use of this to sweep me off my feet.

it'll leave an exceedingly bad taste. 
plus i'm already half rotten & tainted. 

you don't know who i am.
at this point of time, i think i'm a two-faced manipulative, calculative, greedy, wretched slut/bitch.

it was just a sudden thought- don't take it to heart.
i'm not gonna meddle with your life when mine is already in a mess.

i'm not gonna drag you down into the pits with me.
even if you are willing; i wouldn't allow it.

you're more suited for someone like how i used to be.
& absolutely not the me i am now.

i don't want to be so harsh,
but it's for your own good.

go away.
please stop treating me so kindly.

i've already ruined someone else's life.
it wasn't a spell cast- it's a curse.

i have no power to lift it.
he has to find his own way to be free.

i'm sorry.