i realized i've been wasting so much time worrying something so insignificant. wondering if you even cared. wondering if you ever thought of me, wondering if flirting with someone else, wondering if i even hold a place in your heart.

what on earth am i doing? i'm supposed to be studying, not day-dreaming and and let fate help make decisions. i became complacent. i know i'm not stupid. i really have to banish my bad habits of mine. i need to stop procrastinating, stop being distracting, being doubtful and insecure.

if i want something, i can do it. high locus of control; remember grace? do it now, don't think about the past and future. embrace now, the present. self-control. be daring. take the first step. the rest will follow suit and catch up.

be brave and get your head in the game!