i went through my facebook messages so happened to see my conversations since years ago. i realized how much of an immature kid i was. i guess i still am. still needing people to baby me. talk about independence. i used to rely heavily on others last time. my lord. and here i am saying i'm a strong independent woman. but well... ....i still throw tempers and silly fits by having cold wars. and when things screw up i won't do anything to change it but comfort myself by avoidance and denial.

looked back at myself and giggled like a little girl. i swear i'm so cute and childish. in a good and bad way. but still! cute. but adults shouldn't whine and throw tempers around anymore right? right.

who am i kidding? i have to grow up and be a lady now. le sigh.

on a side note, *cross my fingers*; i hope i haven't lost my spark yet. managed to 'click' with a few people this week. hopefully i can make more new connections and expand my social circle. problem. what's that Malaysian person's name again?

my baddddd.