i take it as i'm making a fool of myself the whole time.

why am i so stupid and blind?
i will not care anymore.

you can do whatever you want.
i have less than a year left anyway.

i can wait.
like i used to wait for 17 years.

enjoy this freedom grace.
breath and live.

not counting 11 days anymore.
i lived another year-

i get why some don't want to celebrate their birthdays.
i get it now.

only fools rush in