well, thanks for letting my say my piece.
thanks for being tolerant.

i told you all that because i trust you.
if anyone else knew; at least i'll know i loved the wrong guy.

it'll shatter my heart but at least i know.

you let me do all that even though you know it'll lead me on.
and i hope with all my might that that's because somewhere in your heart you want us to happen too.

but because your reason was similar to mine;
i'd rather give it all that just half.

i know now. how i felt like in the past,
i very much want to say yes but i just can't.

and this time you can't.
so i'll respect that.

i can't believe i'll say this but this time,
i'll wait. since you did too.

and i'll wait till i cannot wait any longer.
and at least i can say this to myself;

i tried.