i always know that although;
i'm not as pretty,
not as submissive,
not as smart;

but i could be more willing,
more open-minded,
more thoughtful,
more selfless,
more cunning but
much more mature.

i know guys forget easily & move on quick.
but girls?
they're a jealous bunch.

i don't blame you.
rather, i pity you.
for listening to her every whimp,
following her everywhere like a puppy dog.
paying for every single meal,
and loving her ever so blindly you never noticed the chances of forever is so low.

i laugh because she's much sought after.
out of four you came out champion.
not because you're better than the rest.

but you're just more convenient.
easier to use,
easier to let go leave.

i didn't know.
god i'm so oblivious to the whole situation.
i scoff at my own denseness.

i did speculate, but it wasn't at all my problem.
i felt you didn't deserve her then.

but you got her.
i rolled my eyes and changed my opinion.
oh lord is she dumb or dumb?

but judging from what i perceive,
nah. she's just using you.
*rolls eyes*

she is a mere child and you a grown childish man.
a perfect mismatch for each other i felt like purging.
i wanted to laugh so bad cos' it's ridiculously disgusting but hilarious.

settle down with her?
nah. she won't. i'm sure of it.
you haven't learnt at all haven't you?

i think you're in too fast.
and i can tell you're in a rush.
i hope you get your heart and wallet get broken torn and tattered so bad.

yea you're willing to risk it.
foolishly.

but i hope you had fun in your bubble.
and i hope you don't regret.
because one day when it finally pops;

you can bet i'll be the first one laughing.
so @emeycia wanted to know my bucket list.
i had i written down somewhere, but i couldn't find it.

so i'll just list it all here, my past and present bucket list :

1. save $10,000 by 20 years old
2. visit Studio Ghibli in Japan
3. visit Tokyo
4. be in a relationship
5. make love, be in love, fall out of love
6. study overseas
7. get a degree
8. bungee jumping
9. skydiving
10. save half a million by 30
11. own my own HBD
12. adopt a cat
13. have a one-night stand (yes, really)
14. get drunk, pass out.
15. run a half-marathon
16. run a full-marathon
17. travel to all parts of Asia
18. go to Europe
19. specifically, i want to go Venice & Antarctica
20. really support a cause
21. get married by 27
22. have a kid by 29
23. try working as a bartender
24. excel at a musical instrument
25. learn pole-dancing
26. let my parents go all around the world, with me paying
27. open a bakery/pastry shop. or patisserie even.
28. be in a relationship with someone of a different race before i get married (i mean, why not?)
29. take part in a cosplay
30. retire, make and sell my own art

i probably add in more along the way~